The Vampire Diaries: The Fury Chapter Sixteen

December 16, MondayStefan gave this to me. Hes given most of the things in his room away. I said I didnt hope it at first, because I didnt know what to do with it. further now I recover I have an idea.People are starting to for come in already. Theyre acquiring the details wrong, and adding things they just imagined. And, most of whole, theyre making up explanations. Why it wasnt really supernatural, why theres a rational reason for this or that. Its just silly, plainly theres no way to stop them, especially the adults.Theyre the worst. Theyre adage the dogs were hydrophobic or something. The vets come up with a new name for it, some kind of rabies thats fiesta by bats. Meredith says thats ironic. I think its just stupid.The kids are a little better, especially the ones who were at the dance. There are some I think we feces rely on, like Sue Carson and Vickie. Vickies changed so much in the last cardinal days that its like a miracle. Shes not the way shes been for the last t wo and a half months, but shes not the way she used to be, either. She used to be pretty much of a bimbo, running around with the tough crowd. But now I think shes okay.Even Caroline wasnt so bad today. She didnt prate at the other service, but she talked at this one. She said Elena was the real ampere-second queen, which was kind of cribbing off of Sues speech from before, but probably the best Caroline could do. It was a nice gesture.Elena looked so peaceful. Not like a wax doll, but as if she were sleeping. I know incessantlyybody says that, but its true. This time, it really is true.But afterward people were talking slightly her remarkable escape from drowning and stuff like that. And saying she died of an embolism or something. Which is absolutely ridiculous. But thats what gave me the idea.Im going to get her other diary out of her closet. And then Im going to ask Mrs. Grimesby to institutionalize them in the library, not in a case like Honoria Fells, but where people can pick them up and read them. Because the truth is in here. This is where the real story is. And I dont fatality anybody to forget it.I think maybe the kids will remember.I suppose I should put what happened to the rest of the people around here Elena would want that. Aunt Judith is okay, although shes one of the adults who cant deal with the truth. She needs a rational explanation. She and Robert are going to get married at Christmas. That should be good for Margaret.Margarets got the right idea. She told me at the service that shes going to go mark Elena and her parents someday, but not now, because there were a lot of things she still had to do right here. I dont know what put that idea into her head.Shes smart for a four-year-old.Typical, absolutely typical. Everybody else gets the guys. Im thinking of trying one of my grandmothers rituals, just to see if Ill ever get married at all. There isnt pull down anybody I want to marry around here.Well, theres Matt. Matts nice. But r ight now hes only got one girl on his mind. I dont know if that will ever change.He punched Tyler in the nose after the service today, because Tyler said something off-color about her. Tyler is one person I know will never change, no matter what. Hell always be the mean, obnoxious jerk he is now.But Matt-well, Matts eyes are awfully blue. And hes got a terrific right hook.Stefan couldnt hit Tyler because he wasnt there. There are still plenty of people in town who think he killed Elena. He must have, they say, because there was nobody else there. Katherines ashes were scattered all over by the time the rescuers got to the crypt. Stefan says its because she was so old that she flamed up like that. He says he should have realized the first time, when Katherine pretended to burn, that a early vampire wouldnt turn to ashes that way. Shed just die, like Elena. Only the old ones crumble.Some people-especially Mr. Smallwood and his friends-would probably blame Damon if they could get hold of him. But they cant. He wasnt there when they reached the tomb, because Stefan helped him get away. Stefan wont say where, but I think to someplace in the woods. Vampires must heal fast because today when I met him after the service, Stefan said that Damon had left Fells Church. He wasnt happy about it I think Damon didnt tell him. Now the question seems to be What is Damon doing? Out biting innocent girls? Or is he reformed? I wouldnt lay bets on it either way. Damon was a strange guy.But gorgeous. Definitely gorgeous.Stefan wont say where hes going, either. But I have a sneaking suspicion Damon may get a surprise if he looks behind him. Apparently, Elena made Stefan promise to watch out for him or something. And Stefan takes promises very, very seriously.I wish him luck. But hell be doing what Elena wanted him to, which I think will make him happy. As happy as he can be here without her. Hes wearing her ring on a chain around his neck now.If you think any of this sounds frivolo us or as if I dont care about Elena, that just shows how wrong you are. I dare anybody to say that to me. Meredith and I cried all day Saturday, and most of Sunday. And I was so angry I wanted to rip things apart and break them. I kept thinking, why Elena? Why? When there wereso many other people who could have died that night. Out of the whole town, she was the only one.Oh, Im starting to cry again. Thats what happens when you think about life being fair. And I cant explain why it isnt. Id like to go bang on Honoria Fells tomb and ask her if she can explain, but she wouldnt talk to me. I dont think its something anybody knows.I lived Elena. And Im going to miss her terribly. The whole school is. Its like a light thats gone out. Robert says thats what her name marrow in Latin, light.Now therell always be a part of me where the light has gone away.I wish Id been able to say good-bye to her, but Stefan says she sent her love to me. Im going to try to think of that as a light to take with me.Id better stop writing now. Stefans leaving, and Matt and Meredith and Alaric and I are going to see him off. I didnt mean to get so into this Ive never kept a journal myself. But I want people to know the truth about Elena. She wasnt a saint. She wasnt always sweet and good and honest and agreeable. But she was strong and loving and loyal to her friends, and in the end she did the most unselfish thing anybody could do. Meredith says it means she chose light over darkness. I want people to know that so theyll always remember.I always will.